Anguish Twenty-ish

08 June 2007

8:41 PM

three years ago, i was 25, that's when i turned 360 degrees.. what broke the camel's back was when my 5 year relationship ended... back then the only thing which mattered to me most was keeping the helluva of a relationship which to begin with wasn't right.. i didn't focus on work, i was what you call very domesticated... i didn't put into good use my college degree... but prior to that i was enjoying every minute of the rat race.. loved it that i was globetrotting and enjoying the dog-eat-dog world of corporate work... until i met him, and everything turned upside down..

i didn't care much for my ambition, what i wanted to do then was a caring motherfucker desperate housewife... hahahahaha...

until i hit rockbottom and told myself this can't be for the rest of my life... great thing, my ex left me for another guy.. and that gave me enough reason to pack my bags and start from where i left off...

since then i've found my balance... i'm enjoying the blood rush and manic pushing demands of work... i bought my own place, economically so independent and emotionally so secured with family and friends... UNTIL a little more than a month ago, i met this guy through g4m which shook my so-called life... i fell in love.. i knew what i was doing was dumb, but what would i do? he made me fall in love... i was again at that crossroad of totally reverting to my experience in the past.. but lo and behold! i was knocked off back to my senses... i realised i was a desperate kerida! for chrissake!

now, AGAIN, i'm back in my element... i didn't lose anything.. i'm back in the rat race and loving it... my life in my 20's... a rollercoaster one... knowing is different from learning...