Taking Meself Forward

05 June 2007

6:07 PM

we're finally over last sunday... the break up is killing me.. i will grieve for now but not long.. i cried since.. i am letting all heartaches out.. i will be fine.. self-respect motivates me to be strong...

i would have made an entirely different lifeplan had we stayed together... but in a matter of days only, i've redirected my life.... took a different path.. i was looking forward to a life with him even if it meant only few days with him... and a fraction of his attention and love.. i was resolved to that idea, even if it reduced me into a dumb second priority partner.. but heck.. just because i loved him...

i've packed my bags and i plan to go back to australia, i am taking a weeklong or months break from the all too familiar things.. just so i'd forget him.. i finally took one final phone call last night to him, still in the hope of patching things up... but i knew in my heart that it is really over....

my heart is totally bleeding... there's nothing in my mind but him... but my soul says hold on and be strong... i'm walking away for now..